‘You are in HIS Presence:’ Juli Wilson Pens Emotional Post After Pastor Husband Dies By Suicide


The wife of California Pastor Jarrid Wilson has penned yet another heartbreaking Instagram post to her late husband after he died by suicide Monday night.

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The wife of California Pastor Jarrid Wilson has penned yet another heartbreaking Instagram post to her late husband after he died by suicide Monday night.

Juli Wilson has been bold in expressing her thoughts and emotions on social media since her husband passed away after a long battle with depression.

“You’re in the safest arms, my sweet jarrid,” Juli wrote in her post. “I am confused, completely heartbroken and jealous all in one.”

Despite the profound grief and pain, Juli is able to interpret the reality of the situation through a lens of faith.

“You are in HIS presence,” she wrote. “What a glorious day that will be when we are all reunited at his feet together. Until then, he is holding on tight to the boys and I during these horribly dark days.”

Juli, who had two boys with Jarrid, added that she was “clinging” to Jesus at this devastating time. “I’m missing you,” she wrote. “He will strengthen and help me. He will hold the boys and I up with his victorious right hand.”

The powerful piece of artwork shared by Wilson was created by a graphic designer named Ashley Harmon and depicts Jesus embracing Jarrid into His arms while holding the hand of Juli and the couple’s two young sons.

“I have such a deep peace knowing he’s holding your hand right now too,” Juli continued. “I love you so much, babe. I miss you beyond words. I will continue to shout your anthem of hope until my very last breath.”

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My loving, giving, kind-hearted, encouraging, handsome, hilarious, give the shirt of his back husband went to be with Jesus late last night . No more pain, my jerry, no more struggle. You are made complete and you are finally free. Suicide and depression fed you the worst lies, but you knew the truth of Jesus and I know you’re by his side right this very second . I love you forever, Thomas jarrid Wilson, but I have to say that you being gone has completely ripped my heart out of my chest. You loved me and our boys relentlessly and I am forever grateful that i had YOU as a husband and a father to our boys . You are my forever and I will continue to let other people know of the hope in Jesus you found and spoke so boldly about . Suicide doesn’t get the last word. I won’t let it. You always said “Hope Gets the last word. Jesus gets the last word”. Your life’s work has lead thousands to the feet of Jesus and your boldness to tell other about your struggle with anxiety and depression has helped so many other people feel like they weren’t alone. YOU WERE an ANTHEM OF HOPE to everyone, baby, and I’ll do my best to continue your legacy of love until my last breath . I need you, jare, but you needed Jesus to hold you and I have to be okay with that. You are everything to me. Since the day we met. J & J. Love you more . These are photos of him in his happy place – fishing the day away . I’ll teach our boys all your tricks, babe. Promise. You are my #anthemofhope

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Many have been responding to Juli’s posts with messages of condolence, prayer and support.

“The tears come with everything you post but I know that God will bring beauty from these ashes, He will use this tragedy for good, and He is with Jarrid right now and will be for eternity,” one person wrote. “Praying fervently for you and your family.”

Jarrid was passionate about breaking down the stigma surrounding mental health, particularly in the context of Church and Christian community. Through his non-profit, Anthem of Hope, the Wilson’s have been supporting those who suffer from mental illness by offering a therapeutic online community and resources aimed at help sufferers find relief from their emotional turmoil.

“The Anthem of Hope team believes that life matters regardless of the circumstances,” the charity declares in its “Core Values” section. “We are devoted to helping those who have yet to see the importance of life, and teach them to understand their worth and value in the world.”

Shortly before he died, Wilson tweeted that Jesus “ALWAYS” offers those going through the throes of mental illness ultimate “companionship and comfort.” The tweet has since been retweeted 7,000 times.

You can learn more about Anthem of Hope by visiting the website here. You can also give to a GoFundMe campaign set up to help Juli and the kids — just head here.